Monday, 13 April 2015

Dear future me

Dear future me,

Have you gotten smaller yet?
Can I ask whether you have your own place now and do you keep any cats?
Are you married yet or is there someone sharing your heart?
Are you talking with your mom now?
Is mom mad at you for not talking to her?
Where did you go after SPM?
Oh! Did you managed to get your driver license??
Are still contacting your high school friends, any thing new about them?
Did you managed to get satisfying results for SPM, better did you get the targeted amount? I hope you did well. I pray that you would get really good results.
Are you still into Half A Century? Because 17 years old you still is.
Did you become famous or anything, did you do that youtube channel thing???

Have you stopped crying over the stupidest things?
Do you still hate your dad sometimes because he acts bias at times? I hope you don't anymore. I hope you still love dad no matter what.
Do you still pull your hair? Has the bald spot recover?
Have you ever been depressed since 2014? Well so far, 17 years old you haven't, that's going great.
Have you competed a book yet? Did you get it published?

Hey future me,

I'm scared you know? Because SPM is in 7 months. I don't think I can do it. I feel like a failure. I'm really scared. I'm really really scared. I'm going to disappoint dad and mom. I'm going disappoint my teachers. I'm just going to waste dad's money on classes. Future me, I'm really terrified, I'm not confident in myself. Ira told me to be confident, but I really don't know. I'm stressing out, I'm really bad at bio, chemy and physics. I stayback everyday but nothing really seems productive. I don't study. I'm a failure. I don't know why I even go to Alpha.

Future me,
I'm really sad right now. I don't know what to do. I'm scared.

Future me,
Are you happy right now?

Love, 17 years old you.


  1. I know how you feel. I'm scared too. But I hope that everything will turn out okay. To you, and me.

  2. I hope and I pray that everything goes well, Allah is with us. Thank you dear x